"I am mad at God."
These are the words I said to my pastor 12 years ago.
I had just lost my aunt. She believed God would heal her.
"Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven." Matthew 18:19
I wasn't so sure I agreed with my Aunt. I wasn't so sure that if two people agreed, that it would be done.
But she faithfully believed for a miracle.
She didn't get it. 12 years ago, I lost my aunt. I was mad at God.
I told my pastor how disappointed and mad I was. He told me this, "It's ok to be mad at God. People sometimes are. In Psalm 88, you can read about someone being mad about God in the Bible."
I studied that chapter. I told God I was mad. I sought Him. I didn't withdraw from Him.
Guess what? He showed me something...
I should never be mad at God. He is the giver of good and perfect gifts. He redeems my life from the pit. He loved me before I was lovable. He is for me and not against me. His heart was broken for me that I lost my aunt, but she was now with Him. She is safe, healed, whole and totally fine and waiting for me! She will be on my homecoming cheer team - I am sure.
When I told my pastor I was mad at God, this is what he should have said, "Sheri, if you are mad at God, you must not know how good He is. When you know Him, truly know Him, you won't ever doubt His goodness. You need to seek to know Him more. He weeps with you. He is your comforter."
We misplace our anger that should be for the enemy who comes to steal, kill and destroy and we place that anger on God. God is the one that came to bring LIFE and life to the FULL - and overflowing!
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10